DianaAgron: Laughing

Welcome to my den of sin....

these shenanigans are f-locked.

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I'm usually pretty open to new friends.

MUST LOVE KSTEW. okay... maybe not love, but I don't tolerate hate. You must at least respect the bitchface. If you don't like her, don't bitch about her in my journal posts. I kind of love her.

Otherwise, at least a basic compatibility in interests would be ideal.



ontd_twatlight   sporadically through the week. 
During True Blood I am participating in discussion posts over on trueblood_lj 
During Big Brother I'm participating in discussions almost constantly over on ontdbb 
I also frequent team_kbitch 
During Glee I'll be in the discussion post on gleeclub
Occasionally at the_gazebo 

but don't be surprised if you see me everywhere. I'm all over livejournal.

comment to be added. :)

KStew: Waving at Paps

I'm making an effort...

Hey kids,

My life has been stupid crazy lately and I don't know what the last thing I updated anyone on was, but I'm at a point right now where I feel like I really just need to get some things off my chest or I'm going to go crazy and I really have no one to talk to, so I'm just going to put it here.

I haven't been around for a lot of you guys - if there even many of you left on my friends list, so I don't expect any responses. I just need a place to put these thoughts.

Work Life.

I'm still working at the animal hospital. I love my job. I do. I get to take care of the animals and help the technicians and doctors with treatments and they trained me in reception which is not my favorite position, but the clients all really like me, so that's okay I guess....

Management sucks. They treat us like shit and make stupid choices that negatively effect all of us. I'm looking for a way out, but I refuse to go back to a fast food or retail job. My passion is with animals and that's where i want to be, even if it means working for people that I don't particularly care for. I was recently (sort of) promoted to surgical assistant. It's not really that big of a deal because I've been doing it for forever, just now they've made it official and I'm getting actual scheduled shifts in there rather being pulled in there during my boarding attendant shifts or whathaveyou.


I'm still volunteering at the Humane Society in my town. Actually... I'm now a board member. I love those women dearly and I'm glad that I have them in my life. Things are difficult there right now because we're trying to figure out what to do about issues at our local shelter. The kill rate is way too high and there are sicknesses running rampant through there and the current director doesn't seem to give a fuck. It's a giant mess of dealing with county commissioners and protesting at commissioners meetings and struggling to get them to let us foster sick animals and have adoption events to help the animals find homes, etc. We're doing the best we can, though. I've recently fostered both a dog and a cat. The cat actually just went to her new mommy with a clean bill of health yesterday. I do miss them, but I'm proud of myself for giving them a chance at life. I probably volunteer and do Humane Society work at least 20 hours a week usually, so this all keeps me very busy (in addition to 40 hours a week at work..)


I'm taking the spring semester off because I'm very poor and need to work more to save some money. Also with the two above things, I'm just getting burnt out. Unfortunately as far as my future goals are concerned, both work and volunteering are equally important to schooling as far as getting into to Vet school at some point, so I just have to make due with what time I have and try not to kill myself in the process.


I still live with my dad. He's still a pain in the ass. He's still my best friend. That's about all I have to report on that front.


As many of you know, I used to write an awful lot. I don't have much time for that anymore, but I still co-ml NaNoWriMo in November and I still hope to one day get something finished and at least attempted to publish. Too many dreams, not enough time, etc.


My boyfriend and I celebrated our one year this St. Patty's day. We're still doing the long-distance thing. It sucks and I hate it. He visited me last so it's my turn to go to Chicago, but I got in a pretty bad car accident last month and all the extra money I try to save to visit him had to go toward paying tow truck expenses and repair costs. I don't know when I will get to see him next is and that's really hard for me to handle considering that he's pretty much the best part of my life right now.

Also hard to handle is how I feel like our entire relationship is really unbalanced. I feel like I spend every minute of every day missing him and wishing he was here and he's just kind of like... yeah, okay, I miss you too. I'll never say anything about it because I'm terrified of being high maintenance in any way. It's just extremely hard in my situation to think that I love him significantly more than he loves me. It hurts.

I understand that he's probably just more distracted than I am. He lives with his best friends in Chicago and gets to spend all day having a great time and loving his life while I'm struggling to pay bills and get good grades while doing the rest of the shit I'm obligated to do here. The truth is I'm really depressed right now and while I know that if I wasn't with him it would make things ten times worse for me, sometimes all this uncertainty really gets to me.

I'm just really confused and lost on that whole thing right now. I love him more than anything and I want so badly to be able to believe that he loves me the same but I just don't. It's probably because of my shit self esteem or whatever, but there it is.

I can't really talk to any of my friends about that, either. They're all either happily in a relationship or single and of the opinion that I shouldn't be with him anyway.



Speaking of my self-esteem, I'm really going to try and do better this year. I've started the couch to 5k program again and I'm starting off this year much stronger than I did last year. I just hope I'm able to make it all the way this time. I really want to run the Color Run 5k. It looks like so much fun.

I think that's really all the important things.  I'm going to go for a long run in the rain now since our power has been acting up at the house all day. I lost power three times while writing this. -_-

SpringAwakening: FullCast


My master music list. I update it and bump it to the top of my journal once a week or so.  Latest Update: January 17th, 2010 - Added over 100 albums. 

What I need


Lil' Abner (any recording)
Batman the Musical
Jerry Springer the Opera


Homeward Bound Score


Any album from...

The Icicles
People Eating People
Carlz Barkley

My purposes in seeking these albums are by law limited to solely temporary purposes. I am legally allowed to keep these tracks 24 hours after listening to them before purchasing them. Any links that I provide you with are bound under the same basic rule and come with a warning. Legally you are supposed to delete them within 24 hours (unless you already own the CD version). Is there any way I can know if you don't? Nope. That's the beauty of lj music sharing ;)

Collapse )Edit: Due to my internet sucking, I am currently unable to upload albums using my home internet. If you have requests, please note that it may take me longer to fill them than usual. 
DianaAgron: Laughing

Silence. I keel you.


If you don't post, don't comment, or generally don't exist on LJ anymore, you likely got cut. If you think you've reached this recording an error, PM me and we'll straighten things out. If you find that you can hover over my icon and still see that we're mutual friends, congratulations on being awesome. Have some pictures of the pumpkins I carved this week as a reward. 

(at the point this final picture was taken, I had just carved the two outside pumpkins while poor achmed in the middle was 6 days old and beginning to rot. :( RIP achmed the dead terrorist.)
DianaAgron: Laughing

A meme

I've been meaning to post this meme for the longest time, but I keep forgetting...

Ask me to take pictures. It can be pictures of anything. Any room in my house, any possession I own, any place I like to / don't like to visit. I can take a picture of my school books or my movie collection or even my mailbox. Anything you're interested in seeing, I can take a picture of it. Request weird stuff and make my life more fun. :)

Dfan: bbcrazysmile

Summer Reading!

Summer Reading! 

I'm going for 30 books during my summer break. Which spans from... 2 weeks from now to the end of September if I'm not mistaken. 3 months. 30 books. Yeah?

LOL, I'm totally dreaming big, I don't think that'll happen, but it might. :)

I'll update this post as I read them, but this is my list of books so far :) 

Tell Me Where it Hurts - Dr. Nick Trout  
Dr. Trout takes the reader on a vicarious journey through twenty-four intimate, heartrending hours in his life; his wry, companionable voice offers enlightening and engaging anecdotes about cuddly (or not-so-cuddly) pets and their variously zany, desperate, and demanding owners.
If you've ever had a pet or special place in your heart for furry friends, Dr. Trout's inspiring account of loving and healing animals is for you.

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Perhaps the most pathetic thing about this list is that I just bought them all. I'm a slave to ebay, no lie. I bought all of those books and only spent 60 bucks total. FUCK YEAH.

But there is only 28 in this list so far, so if you have any suggestions based on what I'm interested in - please share. :)
KStew: FU

Rage. omg rage.

Sonoma County CA separates elderly gay couple and sells their home
Sonoma County CA separates elderly gay couple and sells their home

Clay and his partner of 20 years, Harold, lived in California. Clay and Harold made diligent efforts to protect their legal rights, and had their legal paperwork in place--wills, powers of attorney, and medical directives, all naming each other. Harold was 88 years old and in frail medical condition, but still living at home with Clay, 77, who was in good health.

One evening, Harold fell down the front steps of their home and was taken to the hospital. Based on their medical directives alone, Clay should have been consulted in Harold's care from the first moment. Tragically, county and health care workers instead refused to allow Clay to see Harold in the hospital. The county then ultimately went one step further by isolating the couple from each other, placing the men in separate nursing homes.

Ignoring Clay's significant role in Harold's life, the county continued to treat Harold like he had no family and went to court seeking the power to make financial decisions on his behalf. Outrageously, the county represented to the judge that Clay was merely Harold's "roommate." The court denied their efforts, but did grant the county limited access to one of Harold's bank accounts to pay for his care.

What happened next is even more chilling.

Without authority, without determining the value of Clay and Harold's possessions accumulated over the course of their 20 years together or making any effort to determine which items belonged to whom, the county took everything Harold and Clay owned and auctioned off all of their belongings. Adding further insult to grave injury, the county removed Clay from his home and confined him to a nursing home against his will. The county workers then terminated Clay and Harold's lease and surrendered the home they had shared for many years to the landlord.

Three months after he was hospitalized, Harold died in the nursing home. Because of the county's actions, Clay missed the final months he should have had with his partner of 20 years. Compounding this tragedy, Clay has literally nothing left of the home he had shared with Harold or the life he was living up until the day that Harold fell, because he has been unable to recover any of his property. The only memento Clay has is a photo album that Harold painstakingly put together for Clay during the last three months of his life.

With the help of a dedicated and persistent court-appointed attorney, Anne Dennis of Santa Rosa, Clay was finally released from the nursing home. Ms. Dennis, along with Stephen O'Neill and Margaret Flynn of Tarkington, O'Neill, Barrack & Chong, now represent Clay in a lawsuit against the county, the auction company, and the nursing home, with technical assistance from NCLR. A trial date has been set for July 16, 2010 in the Superior Court for the County of Sonoma.

Read more about NCLR's Elder Law Project.

Are you disturbed by the story of how Clay Greene was treated by the County? Please post this, pass it on, do whatever you can to help raise the visibility of what happened to Clay.

Also, please write a letter to the local paper, the Press Democrat (owned by The New York Times) asking them to do some investigative reporting on the Greene v. County of Sonoma case. So far they have ignored the story.

Send a letter to the editor at letters@pressdemocrat.com. Include the story and a link to this post.


Someone posted this petition to the Santa Rosa Press Democrat asking them to publish the story.


I am completely disgusted right now to the point of tears. Someone hold my hand and rage with me plzthnxs
DianaAgron: Laughing

Chicago Picture poast #1

My trip-buddy is currently sitting through a 2 hour lecture at one of her potential grad schools so I'm going to take this moment to update ya'll on my Chicago visit thus far.

I am still sick. I am not nearly as sick as I was on the train here. I am feeling better every day, though not 100% yet. I'm enjoying myself much more now, though.


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And that about covers it so far. More pictures to come. Eventually. KBAI
WhoseLine: Ryan

Thus far in Chicago

on my trip, I have felt thoroughly miserable.

The weather channel lied to us and instead of the 60 degrees it promised, it was 30 degrees (12 if you add in wind chill)

For someone who is already sick, this is bad news bears. My chest felt like it was on fire all day yesterday while we were braving the terrible freezing cold winds and every time I cough, I feel like death. I seriously felt terrible. It's the kind of cold where you just want to curl up in bed with a cup of hot soup and sleep off for a week straight.

Unfortunately, it has presented itself at a time when I don't have that leisure.

I've almost given up and come home early.

I have an overdeveloped sense of guilt. I feel bad about everything. I feel bad that I'm being a drag and possible making other people sick with this plague that I have. I feel bad that the one girl who I've never met felt so bad for me that she gave me her bed last night. I feel bad that Stephanie (the girl I'm here with) is offering to spend a day in Chicago indoors with me so that I can feel better.

I almost decided to catch the train home early today so that she can finish out her stay here without me dragging her down, though she begged me not to.

Fortunately, this morning I felt a little bit better. Not much, but enough to the point where I decided - you know what? Screw it. I'm in Chicago, and sick or not, I'm going to experience it. I can die on Sunday night / Monday morning when I'm home in my bed. And I fully intend to do so. I'm going to rent a shit ton of movies and sit with some hot tea all day for as long as it takes. Hell, I might not even unpack for a few days.

ANYHOW, I'll quit bawwwing now.

Despite it being freezing and me battling death via cold - it has been fun. Yesterday we arrived at 12:30 PM and caught several buses to the apartment where we are staying with some of Stephanie's friends. They're all very nice and welcoming, but we got them a gift anyhow.

We hung out with Steph's friends Esther and Nathanial who are originally from Peru and very nice. Occasionally they go on a tangent and argue with each other in Spanish, but whatever.

We went out to eat at a Peruvian restaurant at 5 ish. I had peruvian chicken noodle soup. It was good, but there was a lot of it. Then we went to i cream. Which was also good, though I only got samples because dairy is bad for chest congestion :( THEN we went to the book store. Which was my graceland. 3 floors with over 80,000 books. Holy crap I was so happy. I dropped about 60 bucks on books, which was in all honesty less than I had expected.

Then we went over to the Moody Bible institute (most conservative school in America) because that's where Nathanial goes to school. We sat in the commons with a large group of people and played some games until about 9 when we came home and crashed.

I have no idea what we're doing today. I think we're going shopping somewhere. I donut know, though. Improv Shakespeare at the io tonight. That is very exciting. Hopefully I can hold off on coughing for an hour.

Otherwise we have no plans. We're winging it. We kind of threw the itinerary out the door. :)

No pictures yet because I'm lazy.

Also, this is going to be public for just a few days because my dad wanted to keep up with my trip on here. So everyone say hello to my dad.